Going on a juice detox for a bit. My body is fucked.
I hadn’t had my period in 173 days and then it came this morning. I know I should be chuffed but I’m not. It just reinstates the fact I’m fucking huge. It’s put me in an even worse mood. Hello weed, doggy cuddles and cartoons. Goodbye world.
I haven’t been this weight in a VERY long time. Takeaways every fucking day. They’re starting to know my name by heart now. Well no more. Today it starts again.
On half price food at work so I am surrounded by the shitty stuff all sodding day.
I have till my birthday to be back to where I was and smaller. I have more than enough time. Please get me out this binge cycle..
I should start painting for fun again. The fun was destroyed when I was being graded upon my everyday effort and how well my plan was thought out. Art isn’t worked on every day and it isn’t always planned. Sometimes it just is what it is and it sits on the easel for weeks without being looked at.